I’m Pregnant…

My friend said to me, “You’re pregnant, Robbie. I see you pregnant, heavily pregnant…’’ He said it so seriously but I laughed so hard! I couldn’t help myself. It was the most ridiculous thing I’d heard all year, and we were only in August!

Not even in my wildest dreams would I be pregnant right now. I mean, really? Me? Pregnant? Right now? How can anyone relatively close to me even take that statement seriously right now? In the very near future when I finally meet the true love of my life, yes, definitely. I’d definitely want a baby or three with him (insert wicked wink).

But this is the me that doesn’t even have a boyfriend at this point — that gun-to-my-head-this-very-instant, can’t wrack my brain to pinpoint one son of Adam that I am legit head over heels for, even to save my life... Unless Jesus plans to make me a second generation “Mary, mother of Jesus” of the Bible and whispers the Holy Spirit all over me, and how plausible is that anyway?

If I didn’t already know that my friend wasn’t a drinker, I would’ve thought he was drunk over the phone for saying that. Me? Pregnant? See me pregnant how? Sometimes, people should know who they should try this prophetic thing on…

Then he said, “You keep laughing. Keep laughing at me. When we say things like this, you people think we are lying.” At that point, I felt bad, but it still seemed like such a tall tale, that was seriously overreaching…

I’d just like to say at this point that it’s not that I don’t believe in the prophetic or in God’s power to use people in this manner. It’s just that over time, I am not particularly flattered by it, with itchy ears waiting for someone to tell me something about my life. I dig into the Word of God for myself to find out what it’s saying about me; I talk to God, and I trust him to lead me by his Spirit however he will. So I am not out there hungry and hunting for someone to “look into my life/destiny to tell me something scary and revolutionary” like so many modern day Christians are — I don’t know if you get my point.

Then he said, “I didn’t say you were physically pregnant, but I see that you’re pregnant and about to give birth soon. You’re about to birth some dreams you’ve been incubating.” Then he gave some stupendously accurate timelines that made me pause and reflect…

Wait! Maybe he’s not drunk at all, and he’s not joking. He must know what he’s saying, because you can’t make this stuff up…

And it’s interesting that I thought what he was saying was ridiculous, because this was the same person that told me last year that I would leave my job for another one. He specifically said, “I see you in a new job and it’s very soon,” and I reacted the same way. I laughed at him. That one, I really really laughed at him ooo.

Me? Leave this promising job that I absolutely enjoy right now, which is also in a good working environment? To where? For what? I had absolutely no intentions to look for another job soon. In fact, when someone offered me a job, I told them to give it to a friend who was searching at the time. That was just how “not looking for a job” I was! I loved my job and there was no way on God’s green earth that I could see myself leaving at the time.

Ladies and gentlemen, less than six months after that conversation, I actually left my job for another one! And the way it all happened seemed like a groggy dream. I blinked, and boom, I had resigned and accepted another offer, and it’s been an amazing journey so far. This same person I laughed at was so right! And here I was laughing once again!

I guess it’s the way he says these things, that’s perhaps why I struggle to take them seriously. And I see him much more as a “normal” person than anything else, I guess — it’s like how someone would come up to me and say that I told them something utterly life changing, meanwhile I’m just here living in the day to day of my normal life — nothing special to see here; it’s just me, if you know what I mean…

We can be in the middle of a joke or a totally unrelated conversation, and then he’d say some of these things, and then I’m like, which hat did you pull this bunny out of, really? Anyway, that’s an aside. That’s not why I’m here writing today.

I’m writing today because I actually am pregnant! Yes, he was right! I am heavily pregnant too. Joke’s on who now, you said?!

I am pregnant, not with a physical baby, but with bulging, burgeoning dreams that are soon birthing… There are so many things to do to share my light with the world, and with each passing day, I feel their fire blaze brighter; I hear their voices call out my name for tangible manifestation — these dreams are coming out alive! They are unstoppable at this point, there’s nothing to do but push.

What was the dream of one is fast becoming the dream of many, and I can only thank God that he chose me for this, and was patient enough to allow me to choose myself too…

I registered my NGO at the beginning of this year (honestly, it’s five years too late since God gave me the ideas and name, but I believe now is the time for this manifestation) and I’m starting my first bouts of passion projects through it.

A Webinar in this month of August to teach young professionals how to get ahead by leveraging some very useful tools that I had to learn the hard way. Also, I am hopefully launching my BOOK DRIVE initiative somewhere in November, before the year runs out — because I have always shared how books shaped me; shaped my cognitive skills, built my imagination, my articulation and assertiveness as a child, and even as a young adult. Having that love for reading as a child was a gift, and I want to help plant that seed in the hearts of others.

Reading is so powerful for brain development, and we want to help get more books into the hands of underserved communities, and encourage reading for leisure among children and families — there’s never a downside to cultivating a reading habit — reading changes you as you keep up with it...

As part of the book drive, we also want to have a section that greatly promotes the work of African writers and African literature for representation… We also have amazing writers that the world should hear about and be inspired by.

Perhaps, these are the heavily pregnant visions that my friend saw, whose birthing are merely weeks away. I do not know it all neither can I tell all, but one thing drives me for these two initiatives:

I am driven by the intense desire to pay it forward; to share with the world what I have been bountifully given — so that people would not have to struggle as much as I did, to get what I got.

I want to help people become robust readers/articulate writers and bloom that priceless gift into becoming skilled communicators.

You know, the thing about reading for leisure is, it creates a lot of curiosity, and I have found that curious mind very valuable even in my career, particularly when I have to do anything that requires research or creating something from nothing. That self-learning principle pushes you to have a voracious appetite for knowledge and discovery. There’s almost nothing you cannot know when you cultivate the habit of reading…

“…if you can read, honey, you can learn just about anything you want to know. The doors of the world are open to people who can read.” — Ben Carson, Gifted Hands

This gift of reading also brought along with it, a very photographic memory for me, particularly in Junior and Senior High School (which served me well in exams too, because I could picture the pages and where the text I needed was written in my notes), because reading novels (fiction was my niche) allow you to create images of the characters and the setting in your mind — it gives tangibility to the abstract patterns. All of that builds your imaginativeness and your ability to snapshot content and context and regurgitate on demand.

If there’s anything I am convinced about, it is that I do not have to know everything to start doing something positive, and to also recognize that, even the little that I know, can make a huge difference in the lives of others when I willingly and actively share it.

I am well aware that there may be people more experienced and exposed than I am — more connected than I would probably ever be — and you would think that they would be at the helm of change-making. Sometimes we may even be tempted to ask ourselves “why me?”

But no, do not second-guess yourself or think yourself small, for to you it has been given to think about others, and truly see them for who they are; to feel and carry their burdens, and to care enough to lighten their heavy loads; to feel this unquenchable blazing fire that tells you to leap to your feet and do something about it — that thing, that intrinsic zeal, does not come easy for everyone, and to have it alive and thriving within you, is a blessing transcending generations. A generation of good works to be done by and through your heart and hands is here! That is how I see and think, and I invite you to the same mindset and vision clarity.

So yes, I am pregnant, and there are many babies to be born — just as it is with you. There are dreams that have been sealed in your heart that are waiting to be ripped right open. There are good deeds tingling on your finger tips. There is music to be made; incredible magic that would not fade. These dreams have voices calling out your name, and cheering you on like the man in the arena, to make them come alive tangibly in this world.

Do not let your dreams miscarry; do not forget them, do not allow them to die — push forth and far, for their birthing. Humanity depends on your becoming to also become.

My dearest darling reader, I need you to remember that:

“It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcoming; but who does actually strive to do the deeds; who knows great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause; who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who neither know victory nor defeat.” — Theodore Roosevelt, April 23, 1910

So yes, be heavily pregnant, but much more than that, strive and push to the birthing and thriving of those dreams. You would be astounded by how much the world depends on it…

We are the people we’ve been waiting for… Be that man or woman in the arena…

#robbiewrites #radiantrobbie 6.8.22

PS: This blog in itself is a birthing, and it’s thankfully, thriving, much like the other babies to follow. Thank you for being at my baby shower!



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The Radiant Robbie

The Radiant Robbie

Sometimes I have words and thoughts spilling from my soul, and if I don't write them down, I lose them. Robbie Writes. Radiant Robbie